if you go to my school and you reading this you may have your final conversation with me this week. don’t worry, i’m not gonna do anything bad but if i find you to be an asshole, bigoted, or just unpleasant to be around you’ll be receiving a unique response if you try to speak to me.
if you approach me and you’re unpleasant i will be responding “in an act of self care i’ve decided to not interact with you”
i believe that (a)this is a very kind way to get people to not interact with me anymore and (b) i am not required to converse with anyone i don’t want to deal with, so if you have an issue with me saying this to you don’t worry you can take your complaints to twitter where i probably already have you blocked and (c) it’s better to tell people you won’t interact with them is better than giving them the silent treatment.
i know that this blog post is quite a bit more negative in tone than normal but honestly every day at my school i deal with some bottom of the barrel humans and i’m not going to put up with it anymore.
now while we’re here talking self care i want to tell you about the new habits i’ve added to my habit tracker.
new habits include:
posted on social media
some old habits that are returning are
ate 3 meals
attempted self care
and many more
i’m working on upping my activity level, working on my online presence, and getting more used to stress this upcoming month even though it’s my last month of high school because i really wanna start getting prepped for college early.
i’m really craving sourdough right now. hopefully i’ll buy some the next time i go shopping.
i don’t know why i told you that this is kind of a stream of consciousness right now.
me and my friends had a good time but i was disappointed that they didn’t play any music one can vogue to so i didn’t dance a ton since it was all either good twerking music (i can’t twerk), edm esque remixes (yikes), or country music.
one bit of drama is that a girl and her date who sat at the table with my friends were shady and standoffish and i was not ok with it. it kinda put a damper on my night. they insisted on saving 2 seats for their friends (i hate when people save seats) and then left after 20 minutes when they realized their friends got another table so… that’s a positive.
other than that i had a small plate of pasta primavera and drank a ton of the lemonade they offered at the drinks table.
i left early and when i got home i did my skincare routine and ate some french fries because i didn’t eat much before or during prom.
heres photos (not including group photos since i don’t wanna violate my friends privacy)
um… so i dont know how to finish this post so i’m going to just leave
i don’t really know my plans for the day and i’m scared that with my sinus infection i’ll be exhausted and hacking up a lung for the whole night. i’m gonna hopefully have a nice night but there’s no way to get rid of my anxiety right now that taking a xanax and a nap.
my dress is beautiful and i’ll be sure to plaster my prom photos all over social media tomorrow.
heres a few photos from the past weekish
oh! you know what i wanted to tell you about?
i got a new piercing!
look at it!
i have another thing to tell you about!
i got a birth control implant. i got nexplanon and i love touching where the rod went in my arm. check out my cool bruise.
i have a very maladaptive, impractical, time consuming, money grubbing, gross, stupid, inexplicable habit.
i collect everything that i like.
as of right now i collect:
disney tsum tsums
paper copies of epic poems
wide legged pants
and to an extent pets
i’m sure that that’s not even the whole list.
this is an awful habit that i realized i had as i left the disney store with a bag of disney ufufys and decided that that would be my newest obsession. this habit is especially insidious as i don’t even realize that i collect these things until i have an impractical amount of the items i so dearly love. and once i love them can’t get rid of them.
am i a hoarder?
i just like so many things and can’t resist things i like so much.
one thing i’d like to comment on is how saying you collect something is looked upon so much more positively than admitting you have a hoarding problem. what’s up with that? the only difference i see between those at home museums and the houses on hoarders is that the people on hoarders don’t put up as many shelves.
i’m just gonna call myself a maximalist and live in peace with my mountains of stuff.
I had a doctors appointment today to get a birth control implant and after i went to eat at my favorite restaurant!
My favorite restaurant is called Roll n Go and it’s a vietnamese restaurant/boba shop. I ordered shaken tofu and a green boba tea and i ate all of it.
I’ve been eating relatively decent meals at school everyday but i haven’t been able to meet 100% of my meal exchanges. I don’t think that’s a problem though because i view that as being flexible and a step to eating intuitively.
I tried qdoba for the first time last week and i enjoyed it although i just don’t think i’m one for pseudo-mexican food as it didn’t blow my mind like it does to others. I’m so grateful to one of my classmates though because she bought it for me.