i really wanna relapse.
it’s so hard to feel good about yourself when you feel like you have no self control.i’m very aware of the fact that me eating at all is control oriented because if i really had no control i would starve.
i have one really good motivator for not relapsing though…
i don’t wanna lose my hair again.
fun fact about me: i have a few bald spots because my hair would fall out in clumps at the height of my ED.
right now i’m just focusing on eating anything 3 times a day. i think if i can get through this moment where my urges are strong i’ll be able to revert to my positive eating habits, so i’m kinda just waiting this out.
ヽ( ´ ∇ ｀ )ノ
i’m working on a language learning tips post right now but it requires a lot of photos and thus a lot of photo editing.