I’ve been hearing a lot about morning pages recently and I thought “hmm that seems like a good idea, but I don’t wanna waste that much paper”. If you haven’t heard of morning pages, you essentially write 3 pages of whatever’s on your mind right when you wake up. I know you might think, “Mikah, you use a ton of paper already with your tons of journals and book upon books of notes.” I will respond, “yeah, but I like those things, I’m not sure about this”
Well, lucky for all of us, I just woke up.
Welcome to my first time writing morning pages.
I’ll give myself some basic rules:
- a page is about 300 words for me so I’ll aim for 900 words
- don’t say anything too mean
cool, let’s start
I don’t know what happened, but I have a big deep cut on the inside of my knuckle and my finger is super swollen. It must have happened a good while ago because it’s scabbed over and doesn’t feel new. What if I’m up doing dumb stuff while I’m asleep and I didn’t even know?
I guess that’s no big surprise because I’m a person who does dumb stuff all the time so I guess I’d do it while asleep too.
I’ve been watching a lot of these videos about productivity lately and I’ve noticed that everyone gives the same tips. Either these tips are like super holy grail or everyone doesn’t wanna try to come up with their own ideas. I think the answer is the latter, not the former.
I suspect this because I try a lot of these tips and they don’t help me like… at all.
The pomodoro method is the single best way to distract me, putting my phone far away from me for my timer just makes me super anxious and doesn’t wake me up any better (I don’t hear the alarm), and gratitude journaling is like the most disingenuous thing I’ve ever done. Just a few things that came to mind that don’t work for me.
I think I should come up with my own productivity techniques and make a light flooded, aesthetic youtube video about them.
For me the only way to study and not get totally distracted and unproductive is to study straight through with zero distractions for hours on end. I think for many people this sounds awful and burdensome but since I genuinely get pleasure out of studying, this is really nice for me.
Do you remember those Chicken Soup for the Soul books?
I always saw them all over the place when I was a kid and I’ve never read one or heard anyone talk about what they were about.
They’re so mysterious to me and I kinda wish I read one of them when I was little. At the house of a family I stayed with a lot as a child, they had a pink Chicken Soup for the Little Girls Soul or whatever it was titled book and it seemed to pop up in the oddest of places. Like, I’d see it in the living room on an end table one day then 2 hours later it would be in the bathroom then the next day it would be in the kitchen?
I think those books are cryptids and they just show up places and make you feel uncomfortable.
Have you seen the ads for that movie called Smallfoot that’s coming out soon? It has Zendaya in it. It seems like she’s everywhere. I appreciate it though. I remember seeing Zendaya on Shake It Up when I was a kid and wanting to be her so bad. I always wanted to dress like the disney channel kids when I was little. When I look back at that I’m so glad I didn’t because oh my god. Dresses over jeans, thin sparkly scarves over sequin shirts, like 4 shirts of varying sleeve length layered on top of each other.
Why did they dress them like that?
I think it was an effort to dress them as flashy and interesting as possible while also dressing them as modestly as possible.
I have a conspiracy theory.
You know how a ton of disney channel stars go on to become mainstream famous but not many Nickelodeon stars do?
I think Ariana Grande is a test for the first mainstream famous nickelodeon star.
If you pay a lot of attention, you’ll notice that no nickelodeon stars aside from like, Kenan from Kenan and Kel have become famous beyond child stardom, yet Ariana Grande has.
I have like no other observations but if anybody is into conspiracy theories, look into that.
I feel like I might be doing the morning pages thing wrong. I imagine that people who do morning pages have like bursts of inspiration and write these detailed diary entries but I’m over here talking about how books are like bigfoot.
I suppose I should just keep up with the brain dump thing because I don’t think I’m capable of being one of those detailed introspective writers. But that’s why you guys like to read me right? I hope it is, although I am very aware of the people who hate follow me.
I haven’t gotten a death treat in a while. Am I not being divisive enough anymore?
I kinda appreciate the lack of death threats, though.
People are silly.
Well, here we are at 900 words.
I guess I’ll stop for now.