I was so excited for this month. I wanted to do so well and I had so many great plans, but here I am.
So, I’m gonna try to fix this grave failure on my part.
I don’t really know how I’ll go about doing that, but I know that I plan on reaching all of my goals that I haven’t already failed at.
That’s scary for me.
I have to really do a good rebound back into normal life and my attempts at being exceptional in order to make up for my losses in so far.
Let’s start out by writing this blog post.
I haven’t blogged in a few days and it’s pretty upsetting.
I’m a creature of habit so as a general rule, if I give myself a day to wallow in bed and do next to nothing I tend to turn that day into a week. I’m pretty prone to getting far too comfortable with defeat. I have a very obvious defeatist mindset, and it doesn’t tend to lend to things working out in my favor.
I guess since I haven’t done so great at working toward some of my more tangible goals this month, I’ll come up with a new goal.
This goal is: be less of a defeatist.
So I’m gonna try to manifest this by doing things even when a loud part of me tells me it’s not worth it. My inner voice often will yell at me that if I can’t get x reward from my effort, I might as well not even try to work toward anything. We’re gonna yell back this month I suppose.
The weird thing about blogging is that I find, when I don’t blog for a while I get worse at blogging. I guess it’s like exercising where if you go for a while without exercising you get far more sore upon going back to working out.
These past roughly 2 weeks have been pretty stifling. *By stifling I of course mean that I stifled my own progress. I haven’t been quite as focused on my studies, my online presence, or my personal progression (i.e stretching, working on my vocals). I have written in my goals journal, however, that balance will be my focus from here on.
- I’m gonna try to schedule my days in advance upon learning my obligations (for example work hours and errands)
- I’m gonna try to journal and track my lifestyle more than I have for the past few weeks.
- I’m gonna complete every task on my daily to-do list every day for the rest of this month.
- I’m gonna visualize my future with every action I take, because I know that what I do will help me reach my dreams.
- I’m gonna force myself up when I’m down
- I can’t think of anything else
Well… We’ll see how this works out.
Thanks for reading.