I took a picture today and I’m was happy with what I saw when I looked at it.
It seems like a really small thing for most people, because the average persons hair grows no matter what. But for me it’s a big deal when I see hair growth.
My hair has always grown upsettingly slowly. I never even cut my hair until I was 18 (aside from cutting a chunk out once when I was 4) and it’s still for lack of a better word: unimpressive.
It didn’t help that when I was more restrictive my hair would sometimes fall out in clumps.
After I looked at the photo I rushed to my mirror and I was shaken… I HAVE ROOTS!
That’s a new one for me.
I’ve never had hair that grew fast enough for me to have visible roots before my hair would fade. The last time I dyed my hair was in early January!
My hair is actually a relatively light brown and I dye it a blueish-black, so I have light roots. It’s kinda funny. You don’t see many people with light roots other than like goths with naturally blonde hair who dye it black.
I’m afraid that it’ll sound like I’m bragging while I write this. I’m literally typing in an enthusiastic fever because my hair growth is such a sensitive issue for me that seeing my hair really grow is like getting botox or something.
I’m like really, really happy.
You know I always wanted to punch the girls that would complain about their hair growing fast when I was a kid. I always felt like they were mocking me. Like… “f*ck your bob! You’re lucky enough to have hair that grows and you’re taking it for granted!” Same with people with thick hair being mad when they break hair ties. I like to imagine that I’m less bitter now, but I can’t say that for certain.
I don’t want to take my hair for granted.
I think it may be a bit unhealthy how much my hair matters to me, I’ll work on that later, but until then I’m gonna be very happy when I see it growing.
Ok, I’ll be excited somewhere else.