Wanna Cosplay Again + Assorted Images

I used to cosplay when I was younger.

It was mostly bad homestuck cosplay, but I really enjoyed it at the time.

I think I want to get back into it.

I haven’t constructed a costume for myself since I think 2015, s I think it would be cool to see what I can do after so long.

I’ve actually been thinking about this since like October of last year (for all I know I may have already written about it on here).

I have some characters in mind.

I don’t really know what all to say honestly, just wanted to put it out into the ether that that’s something I’m interested in.

I guess I’ll give y’all some photos to make this post less painfully boring.

wholesome chihuahua content
this photo looks so stupidly smooth. i kinda hate that.
i’m #7 in the world at the squirrel feeding mini game in cooking mama so… be proud?

Spongebob at the Super Bowl

The super bowl was yesterday.

I never know when it’s gonna happen and most years I learn the date of the super bowl the day after it happens, honestly.

I like to watch the half time show the day after, it’s kind of a ritual and this years show was disappointing.

I’m not going to blindly hate on Maroon 5, but I think this was an odd choice. (I’m just saying I want a BTS half time show, it would shake the table even though it’s a bad idea)

The halftime show isn’t supposed to be a concert in the middle of a football game, it’s kind of performance focused event and when I think of amazing live performers Maroon 5 are pretty low on that list.

It wasn’t like offensive in it’s badness, in fact I wouldn’t really call it bad. It was just… a concert.

It was cool to see Travis Scott and Big Boi come out. (even though Big Boi’s fur coat made me wretch STOP KILLING ANIMALS FOR UGLY CLOTHES!!!)

What’s interesting is that most discussion of the halftime show I’ve seen has been about the spongebob cameo?

I don’t know, I guess I’m not into spongebob enough to care.

Stephen Hillenburg was a revolutionary in his field and it’s nice to see a tribute to him, but…

Do people really like spongebob this much?

I always considered spongebob to be a backup option. Like if I was stuck in the house and Hannah Montana, Phineas and Ferb, or iCarly (or who am I kidding, any trash reality tv show [come back flavor of love!!!]) weren’t on I would settle for spongebob. It was never first choice though.

I’ve noticed a lot of people my age have an obsession with this show and I can’t seem to get it. I’ve seen people call it the best show ever made, the blueprint of comedy, the foundation of their childhood, and all sorts of other hopefully hyperbolic accolades. I really don’t get it!

I really liked the spongebob movie as a kid, but it felt a load different that the show. The show was just… noisy? I can’t think of a description. Lots of the episodes are great, but the great episodes are outnumbered like 15 to 1 at this point after the shows 20 year run.

ooo… You wanna feel old?

I’ve been alive for a shorter time that spongebob has been on TV.

Isn’t that weird to think about?

Spongebob’s first episode aired before I was even conceived.

I don’t really know what I’m talking about.

It would’ve been interesting to see an all spongebob halftime show I guess.


My Winter Wonderland Day

*authors note: I wrote this post about a month ago and never posted it, but I put in a lot of effort to edit and watermark these photos. Plus this was a really nice day, so I’d like to share it with you anyway.*

I think I say it every 5 minutes, but winter is my favorite season.

Every year I pretty much just count down to winter and then when winter is over I get super sad.

About a week ago, I had a really nice winter day.

I wanted to share my photos and some commentary with you!

We woke up pretty early in the morning because my mom had a doctors appointment about an hour from our house at 8-ish. So we left the house at about 6 and took a nice drive.

The drive was pretty uneventful, but I was intrigued by this truck.

I just sat in the lobby at the doctors office while my mom got checked out, so I took a selfie with the tree. They were playing a lot of christmas music I’ve never heard before. Did you know Kelly Clarkson has a christmas album? Maybe I’m the weird one for not knowing that.

My bangs look greasy but I swear they’re just wet.

After visiting the doctors office, we had a few hours to waste until a dentist appointment, so we went to one of our favorite places: Central Market.

This succulent wreath was like $65.
This wasn’t $65
 I love the fact that I’m only a little over an hour from a concrete artichoke when I’m in my home. It’s comforting.
Less comforting concrete produce.
I have an odd obsession with photos that are edge to edge.

There was a photo area set up outside the store, so being the camwhore I am, I had to take pictures.


After spending some time (and about $14) in central market, we went to have an early lunch. I was so excited because we were right near my favorite restaurant, but they were closed :(((((

So we went to a pizza place that, much to my joy, offered vegan cheese.

I didn’t take a picture of my food because I generally don’t photograph my food, but I DID get a picture of the cool sink in the restroom.

The dryer is the big flat grey bit. It was super cool in the moment, I swear.

After eating, we went to the dentist. It was pretty uneventful, but they had the food network on so I got to watch The Pioneer Woman.


Sorry for the ugly picture, Ree Drummond.

After that was the main event of the day… ICE SCULPTURES!!!!!!

I have a very intense love of ice sculptures and I’d been hoping to see these for like 2 months, so enthusiasm ahead.

We took a pretty long drive up to the Gaylord Texan,

I thought the giant blue parkas they gave us were actually really cute… I think I was alone on that one.


I didn’t get a good picture of the snowman, this is all I got.


People are animals, they broke his hand off 😦


In the gift shop, they were selling little notebooks with characters on them, but all they had left was him. All the Rudolphs and snowmen and other characters were all sold. I kinda felt bad for him.
Painfully cute. I bought a stuffed polka-dotted elephant, don’t tell anyone.


This was in the room with the giant ice slide. I felt like a giant dork sliding down the ice slide with all the toddlers. The staff glared at me :/
The reindeer look like Pingu from the front. noot noot.


And much to my surprise, my favorite sculptures actually came at the end.

In the nativity scene.

I love him. I want to take him home with me 😦


The ice was upsettingly clear. It was kinda breathtaking

Not much else to say, but I was amused by how huge the Gaylord Texan is (I’ve never been there before). They have their own FedEx!


After this we kinda just went home.

Well thanks for reading!

Bye for now!

*P.S. I’m sorry I haven’t blogged in a while, I’ve actually been trying to but wordpress has been giving me an error message every time I try to post, schedule, or save ANYTHING. I’m mad about it. Love you guys though.*

Library Card

I really like it when my blog posts have short, original titles. I have a weird fear of running out of names for my blog entries, so it’s… comforting.

I got a library card today.

I think I would have gotten one earlier, but I’d be a liar if I said I knew where my nearest public library was before last week. I thought it was like a 20 minute drive away, but it’s nearer!

I went to the public library today because I needed to do an online quiz for my math course and the system they use doesn’t run on Chrome OS. So I needed to track down a windows or mac computer.

My mom and I were out anyway because we had appointments at the optometrist (new glasses soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!), so we went to the library.

To use the computers at the library they charge you a dollar for each use, but you have free access with a library card and the library cards are free so I figured I’ll get a card and use my dollar for maybe… I don’t know… A bag of twizzlers at the dollar tree? I’ll figure it out later.

I was riding the high or being an intellectual with a library card, but then my day was stifled because the PCs at the library weren’t compatible with the quiz software. 😦

So we went home and thank god for my moms friend because she logged onto my account on her computer up in MAINE and put in my answers for me while I told her which ones over the phone! YAY! (thank you if you’re reading this, i didn’t use your name because i like people to have anonymity unless i get their permission)

Today was over all a success.

I had a nice study session, I took selfies with Maddie, I had a wonderful conversation with the optometrist, and I got a library card! Plus I got a 100% on my quiz!

Oh you wanna see my selfies with Maddie? Here’s one!


BTW: I’m feeling better. Haven’t puked in a few days. Still feel weird inside my head, I feel residual fever for like 2 weeks. :/

Edit: I forgot to mention it in the entry at first, but I’m still very satisfied with my labrary card because guess what? They have a big anthology of Junji Ito’s Tomie!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I’ve only ever read it online! I wanna read it on paper so bad!!!

Why Not?

Do you ever just sit down, think about your life, and then say “screw it”?

I did that today.

As I mentioned yesterday, I have a tendency to develop paranoia around work (and school). I don’t know where this fear came from, but I envision people from work or school seeing me do anything other than work or study and responding by going on a witch hunt for me.


If that’s ever gonna happen, I may as well encourage it.

So I’m gonna write whatever I want, even if people may think I use my time incorrectly.

I’m not gonna bash anyone of say anything mean, in fact I’m just gonna write about my day and how I feel.

I woke up at a decent time today, much to my surprise. I stayed up until 1:00 last night for reasons I don’t know. Part of it I think is because I was excited about the lunar eclipse.

I hope you all had the chance to see it

Today is Martin Luther King Jr day, so I don’t have classes. (woohoo!)

I pretty much just studied and planned all day.

I also looked at my youtube analytics for the first time in like 3 months today and one of my videos has over 400 views!? I can’t believe it! I thought my videos would all stay under 100 for at least my first year, but look at that! Too bad I look terrible in the video :/



I really don’t have much to talk about at the moment, but for some reason I was scared to even write this.

I think I just associate constant things with hostility because of my overwhelmingly awful experiences in school.

I’m gonna finish writing my disney posts in the near future, by the way. I’m hoping they’ll all be written before the end of January.

February is hopefully gonna be a landmark month for all of us.

I have some plans for February that I’m hoping will aid me in building a future that I want and y’all should be getting some good content out of it too.



It’s Good To Write When Your Mind Is A Catastrophe

I’m not feeling astounding at the moment.

I’m still super nauseous. I’m emotionally shaky. I’m tired.

It is important, however, to keep up with my blog. This domain name costs money, after all.

I have a big change happening in my life that I’m not sure I can tell you all about, but it’s weighing on me heavily. I hate that. I hate keeping secrets. I get real, tangible joy from telling strangers about my problems, but my current issue is a sensitive one. Once things are settled I’ll tell you every detail and trust me, it’ll be worth the wait.

Have you ever been on the verge of vomiting but it’s not quite urgent yet and it’s also not just nausea? That’s where I am. I am for sure gonna vomit in the very near future but the time isn’t upon us.

I think I need to vent about an issue I have that is most likely indicative of a larger issue.

I think my job is out to get me.

I’ve been having some trouble with work and my inner monologue about it has transitioned into paranoia.

Ok, who am I kidding, this paranoia has existed since I got hired.

I’m afraid to do things as simple as post a photo on my instagram for fear that my boss or a coworker could see and think “why are you taking photos and not working?” Even on days that I work and days that I was just scheduled off.

I feel a pressure that I should always be on the clock.

I think I’m gonna try to just do things without fear of backlash from my work, but it’s hard to do that when for my whole life I’ve felt like I need to make everything my livelihood.

I just hate upsetting people.

My thoughts of work taking over my life have reached an extreme nowadays.

I’m scared someone’s gonna turn up at my door mad. I’m afraid I’m being listened to. I’m scared someone may try to fight me.

I have a tendency to catastrophize about everything, but honestly I can’t logic my way out of this one.

I’m just gonna wait this one out I suppose.

Just took a vomit break, where was I?

Oh yeah, work related anxiety.

I’m just so freaked out I don’t know what to do.

I’m gonna lay down now. sorry.

Vomiting Up Water


It’s been a few days, hasn’t it.

Well I’ve had an eventful time.

Monday was my first day of college.

I started my time off right by showing up to my first class 12 minutes late, so that’s great.

Samoa also got neutered on Monday.

Not a ton happened, but it was just generally draining.

Then on Tuesday I had another day of classes, also soul crushing, but Tuesday began my great saga of vomit.

Between my second and third class of the day, I had to rush to the bathroom to vomit.

So that was cool.

And then in the afternoon on Wednesday I began a wonderful pattern of vomiting roughly every 45 minutes.

Yesterday I went to CareNow and they say I have some unspecified virus so now I’m just sitting around. I think I’m gonna try to do homework ahead of time or something but I don’t know.

I wasn’t able to keep down water until like noon yesterday but I’ve only puked twice since then so… me: 1 unspecified virus: 0

I don’t know, I’m having a hard time forming thoughts.

I’ll write on here again some other time.