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ED Recovery Update #10

i’m less weight minded right now but i’m very aware of how i look in clothes. i haven’t had a hypoglycemic issue since i went to six flags so i suppose my eating schedule may be helping with that. i set timers for meals now because i have a tendency to delay eating. they help a lot…

what i ate on July 2nd, 2018

note: i am in recovery from an ed and i’m vegan so my meals will reflect that breakfast: oatmeal with peanut butter (3/4 cup rolled oats, 1 tsp brown sugar, 2 tbsp peanut butter) snack: sourdough toast lunch: red lentil and spinach salad with balsamic vinaigrette + a granny smith apple dinner: marinated tofu and…

ED recovery update #9

i really wanna relapse. it’s so hard to feel good about yourself when you feel like you have no self control.i’m very aware of the fact that me eating at all is control oriented because if i really had no control i would starve. i have one really good motivator for not relapsing though… i…

ED recovery update #8

i’ve been having some ED thoughts and urges but not a ton. my biggest urge currently  is to delay meals. like when i’m due to have a meal i often find myself thinking “i can wait another 30 minutes”. recently i’ve been having snacks which is new. they’ve been very low calorie (i know i…

ED Recovery Update #7

i’ve been having a lot of restrictive urges lately and i’ve been able to prevent myself from acting on them with something that used to encourage them: myfitnesspal for years (2012-2016) i used myfitnesspal as a restriction tool, i would follow the plan where you’re allotted 1200 calories each day and i’d always aim for…

new development: cravings

*tell me if you like the center alignment in the comments* i get cravings now. they’re mainly for anything garlic and/or bread. you may have noticed an abnormality in a post i posted about a week and a half ago that i craved sourdough bread. that’s not a super new thing, i got occasional cravings…

ED Recovery Update #4

i’m doing pretty decent. i was at the hospital with my mom as she got surgery and i managed to eat 3 meals while i was there the whole day and ate other meals at decent times. i didn’t eat “perfect meals” but i was relatively limited as my food source was a hospital food…