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1 Year Out of ED Treatment!

I made a big mistake… Yesterday was my 1 year anniversary of graduating from treatment and I totally forgot! Can you believe it? It feels simultaneously like it was just yesterday and like it’s been 13 years since. I really don’t want t make some long sappy post because really this should be considered a…

ED Recovery Update #15

I haven’t written one of these since October. I think there’s been a lot of change since then, so I think I’ll try to write this month by month to give it some sort of organization. November In November I was very stressed and freaked out. Peanut’s hip issue and my transition to working full time made…

ED Recovery Update #14

I have a baked potato in the making in the oven as I write this post and I’m actually excited for dinner. I wish they had the tofutti sour cream at the store when I went though because that would make my potato experience 10x better. I’ve been pretty apathetic when it comes to my…

ED Recovery Update #13

It’s been a while since one of these. There are probably new readers who don’t even know I’m recovering from an eating disorder at this point. So here’s an update. I haven’t had a hypoglycemic episode in a super long time. I think the last time I had one was in July. That makes me…

ED Recovery Update #12

Been a while since one of these, right? Well since the last EDRU, I’ve been thinking about food a lot. Not in a craving way because I still only get cravings every once in a while, but in a methodology-centric way. I’ve been eating in a pretty robotic way for the most part because I’m…

ED Recovery Update #10

i’m less weight minded right now but i’m very aware of how i look in clothes. i haven’t had a hypoglycemic issue since i went to six flags so i suppose my eating schedule may be helping with that. i set timers for meals now because i have a tendency to delay eating. they help a lot…

thinking about how clothes fit

i get so frustrated 7/10 times i get dressed. i strongly crave a breast reduction. i just wish that i was a waify person who could wear oversized clothes and have them actually look oversized. whenever i put on something, even i it’s 5 sizes too big, it’s tight on my goddamn tits!!!!! i wish…