Last Entry of 2018

Hi everyone!

I’ve been out and about from sunrise to sunset for the past few days so I haven’t taken the time to write out a blog entry, but my mom and I are waiting for a dinner reservation right now so I figured I’d write.

I really don’t like sentimental mumbo jumbo, so this probably won’t be some grand reflection on the year. I just wanna write out my thoughts.

I’m so happy to be where I am. I tend to not enjoy most things celebrational because I tend to have pretty unexceptional celebrations. But I’m at disney world right now!!

I’m 100% the type of person to make new years resolutions (which I already wrote out in october because duh), and I just thought of a new one.

I want to celebrate stuff next year.

This whole year I haven’t done anything to celebrate anything other than blog posts. I didn’t have a birthday party, I took a nap after my graduation ceremony.

Yeah, I think I want to get excited about stuff in 2019.

So there.

That’s my last entry of 2018.

Let’s end this with what- in my opinion- is the best photo of me this year.

I don’t think I ever posted this on here
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I Miss Homestuck

*sigh*

I have to work once more.

I need to start getting ready in about 15 minutes so hopefully I should be able to get out a decent post in that time.

Last night my mom and I went to the movie theater. We saw 3 movies. I don’t wanna make this post a movie review though so I won’t tell you too much about the ones we saw.

Something I’ve been thinking about quite a bit today is homestuck. I miss it.

If you somehow haven’t heard of homestuck, it’s a webcomic that I absolutely LOVED when I was a youth (I’m still a youth but you know what I mean).

I thought of homestuck again because I had a song in my mind and couldn’t place it until I realized it was from Cascade, a flash animation from the series. I also realized that cascade is 7 years old now………. Now I wanna read through homestuck again.

I think it would take me about 10 days to get through it again if I really put a lot of effort into reading.

I kinda miss when homestuck was big.

I remember how much fun I would have at conventions hanging out with people who also loved the comic and I really have fond memories of that time.

I don’t know what else to say about it though.

I just wanna put my appreciation of homestuck out into the ether.

*p.s if Andrew Hussie ever decides to make a homestuck movie, please tell him to consider me for a role*

Just Livin, Baby

What am I doing today?

Read the title.

It’s halloween and I don’t have a costume, but I don’t really have anywhere to wear a costume so it’s fine.

I feel a little sad about it because I love to wear costumes though.

I can wear a costume any day though, it’s not illegal.


I honestly don’t know what I’ve discussed on here in the past few days so I may reiterate something I’ve said before.

I got scheduled like double my normal hours at work this week, so that’s something happening in my life. Today is my day off.

Lately it’s felt like my body clock has been resetting. I’ve been going to bed a lot later than normal and having a tough time waking up as a result of that. I’m normally quite proud of being an early to bed early to rise person but as of late I’ve gone to bed at like midnight.

That’s crazy.

I normally go to bed at like 9.

I’m gonna try to retransition my sleeping schedule so I can start going to bed earlier again.

I hate waking up late. It feels like I missed something.


Ok, now I have to discuss something that has taken over my day.

However you think this is gonna go, you’re probably wrong.

I watched a video of a baby dying today.

Essentially the video showed a recently born baby in the NICU attached to a lot of machinery and his family around him watching him die.

The thing about the video and the reason it’s going around twitter is that the baby waves and then holds his moms hand before he dies.

Sad right?

Well I’ve been laughing all day because of it.

No, I don’t think an infant dying is funny.

At the beginning of the video, you can hear a family member say “He really ain’t got no neck.” (This was clarified by the original poster of the video that that was to break the ice in the tense room.)

 

I thought that was the funniest thing I’ve heard in a while.

Imagine.

You’re in the NICU. A family members newborn son is dying in front of you. The room is tense. You need to make this moment better for everyone in the room.

And what comes to mind to break the ice?

 

“He really ain’t got no neck”

Imagine that being the last thing you hear!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

So now whenever I see anything bad happening to someone, I say “He really ain’t got no neck.”

It hasn’t gotten old and I’ve said it like 50 times today.

Just wanted to share that with the whole internet.

Thanks for reading.

Planning, Twitch, and Gummy Bear Earrings

Today I feel like I have quite a bit more to write about compared to yesterday.

I spent a lot of time bullet journaling and planning over the course of last night and this morning and I feel like I have my whole life together.

OK, not necessarily my whole life, but I feel more put together than normal.

I’m trying to not give myself too many goals that depend on others (i.e blog views, subscribers) but I’ve been setting a lot of goals.

I’ve also been budgeting quite a bit and I made some little savings goal doodads on paypal for the various expensive things I’m saving up for.

I took some advice from the comments on my Focusing on My Finances post for my new budgeting technique.

I’ve made specific paypal goals for even frivolous things like obsessive ebay purchases and Lirika Matoshi socks, alongside more long term and rational goals of course.

I don’t think those items are frivolous though…

I’ve also made some hand written business cards for myself to hand out when I meet new people at those college “this is what college is” events and whenever I get too close to someone in real life upon first meeting (happens too often).


I’ve developed a new love of live streaming.

I’ve been livestreaming a few of my study sessions and bullet journaling moments, and I really love being able to talk to people in a live chat.

I made a twitch account because I’ve heard it’s easier to find talkative people on twitch than on youtube where I’ve done my past streams.

I think twitch is pretty cool.

I wrote it off at first because it’s mostly known for video game streams and I have no interest in watching someone play Player Unknown Battlegrounds, but I found out the other day that you can kinda do whatever you want on there (aside from nudity and lewd behavior of course). Also Jenna Marbles and Julien Solomita spend a lot of time on there and Jenna is one of my biggest inspirations so it would be sacrilege for me to not at least watch her twitch streams.

I think I’ll be doing my future study streams on twitch.

If you wanna follow me on there here’s my link: twitch.tv/dearmikah


I’m hopefully getting an exciting package in the mail today!

I ordered some stuff from PeachesandParfait on etsy and I’ve been eagerly awaiting the arrival of my order.

This may sound odd, but I’ve always wanted earrings that look like gummy bears…

AND THEY SELL THEM so of course I had to get a pair (alongside some other things…)

If the ones I ordered are nice I’m gonna buy them in every color.

There’s something that’s the perfect amount of kitshcy about gummy bears. I feel like other similar candies like gummy worms lean younger while having no candy themed things in your life screams “boring”.

So I’m super excited about my gummy bear earrings (I also got some gummy bear charms to put on everything).


I’m gonna start training for my manager position at work soon.

I’m excited!

I got to do a few managerial things at work yesterday and it was nice. I got to do a lot of non-division math and I quite enjoyed that.

Something people don’t know about me/ expect of me is that I really like math. When I was in geometry I never got below a 97 on a report card and fractions have always been very easy and almost come second nature for me.


Ok, I’m gonna end this post here.

Thank you for reading!

I’m Not Gonna Not Post

I have no reason to not post today.

I kinda had no big goals for the day and I had no plans, but here I am. The sun’s almost down and I still haven’t written yet.

But at the same time, here I am, writing a blog entry as we speak.

 

You know what I wish would make a comeback? Cell phone charms.

Do you remember when every phone had a little notch in it to put a charm in? No you can’t find any phone case let alone phone with charm capabilities. My phone case can work around that because there’s a thin bit near where the little flap covers the ringer switch.

So I think with my upcoming paycheck I’m gonna buy this phone charm I found on etsy. I’ll update you on my phone charm journey later.

I’m still kinda flustered about my ruined guest post.

I actually quite liked the article I wrote (until it was posted) but whatever, I got a good number of new views in the past few days.

I think I’m gonna reach my view goal for my blog this month. Last month I was 9 views away 😦

Oooo you know what I’ve discovered?

If you combine pasta with aldi marinara sauce and the aldi vegan mozzarella, it tastes exactly like a stouffers cheese lasagna.

I used to eat those when I was vegetarian and they were a delight so I’m pumped that I’ve been able to replicate the flavor in a dairy free way.

If you have an aldi near you, please buy their vegan stuff. I want them to see the demand and keep producing it because good god that mozzarella and that chocolate ice cream are life changing.

I also like their vegan potstickers and black bean burgers.

I hope they make even more vegan stuff.

Yesterday I went to aldi and I wore a coat and shorts and I could hear the lady behind me lecturing her daughter to never dress like me. haha.

That may be good advice honestly.

I like the way I dress though. I think I stand out in a crowd and my clothes get the point across that I want to get across.

I’ve written over 30 words so I think this entry is sufficient so I’ll sign off here.

Thanks for reading! Bye!

Frustrated!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Ok, let’s start with a story.

About a week and a half ago I offered to write a guest post for a person in a facebook group with me. He was very courteous and answered any question I had.

After working on my post for 5 days, I sent it in and he was very complimentary. He asked if I’d like to have any links in the post and I asked for my blog to get linked (some of you came to my blog from that link, thanks for that) and a link to my instagram.

That was the end of my interaction.

Note that I wrote this post for free.

I really don’t wanna be mean but I’m upset about how my article has been spun. My introspective, personal piece has been turned into another “how I learned to love my body” sappy mess.

What?

I hate my body!

I wasn’t asked for a bio, so I didn’t expect one but when I looked at the post, my bio is a copy and paste of facts about my pets from my FAQ page! I have a bio on my website! It’s right on the sidebar!

Ugh. I’m just frustrated. I didn’t even get a good picture of me used in the featured photo.

I don’t wanna call anybody out so I won’t be linking to the article and I won’t be naming names but just know I’m a little upset right now.

I’m gonna be a bit more vindictive if I write any more guest posts.

If you’re one of the many people who discovered my blog from this piece, I hope it doesn’t define me for you.

If you’d like to read a piece I’m very proud of, check out Seedling Magazine

I’ll just let this post get buried.

The Case For Vapidity

I love photo editing apps with a sticker function like line camera, picsart, and rakuga cute.

I know a lot of people find the sticker thing to be really tacky but I don’t care one bit because I think they’re cute.

So here’s some pictures of me with stickers on them ♡

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So, now that people have clicked out of this post for it being vapid or useless, let’s talk.

I wish people wouldn’t be unnecessarily critical toward people who have supposedly vapid interests.

This came to the forefront of my ind today as I’ve been looking at chess resources and chess news since I’m beginning my journey to become a chess player. People regard chess as an ultimate sport of the mind and as a completely non-frivolous endeavor. Why is that? If we think about it hard enough, chess is first and foremost a game. A game mainly played by the privileged. A game mainly played by the privileged with a community that is crawling with sexists, ableists, and people who look down on the “lower classes”.

Note that I don’t blame chess for these issues, I blame the community.

I was hoping to find a nice, intellectual community when I took a foray into a chess.com forum and boy was I wrong. People on that website are aggressive, quick to criticize, and rarely quick to disown racists and sexists in their community (in my experience).

Again, chess.com is not a proper sample of the entire chess community and I am not blaming the game or even the majority of players for the actions of anonymous dorks on forums.

I have discussed my appreciation for the “silly” many times on this blog.

I love:

  • taking pictures of myself
  • tiny dogs
  • stickers
  • pastel colors
  • makeup
  • stuffed animals
  • skincare
  • disney
  • lip gloss
  • doing hair
  • cooking
  • escapism
  • (tasteful) glitter
  • fashion
  • stationary
  • etc etc

and I will not allow others to dissuade me from my interests.

Anymore.

For a large period of my life, I’ve found myself shunning things that I truly like so that I won’t be seen as a bimbo, vain, stupid, or worthless in serious discussion. I’m sick of it!

Let me tell you a story.

When I took AP Music Theory at my second school of that year, I felt pretty ostracized. With the exception of a few friends in the class and one neutral dude, the class was populated by a judgmental clique. When I would raise my hand they would roll their eyes, I even heard one say “here we go again” one time. I would get stares when I wore my favorite outfits as though it’s a crime to not wear jeans and a sweatshirt every day like they did. They would laugh as I spoke.

You wanna know something funny though?

My teacher liked me, I got great grades in the class, and I ended up getting a 3 out of 5 on the AP exam (a score many of them failed to reach).

After that class and the drama that defined it for me, I decided to be a bit more shameless when it comes to doing what I like. For the next year or so I was slightly more shameless but there was still a lingering terror that hung above my head at the idea of dressing 100% the way I like or talking openly about my more vapid interests.

I love my blog but I think I’ve failed to truly express the more vacuous side of my nature. I think I’m in a period of transition.

I like having a place to be shameless.

I like encouraging others to live shamelessly.

I am so thankful to those who have told me I inspire them to blog!

So I will be a bit more me from here on.

And that includes stickers.

thank you for reading!