My Day

Today has been a little productive and very photography oriented.

I woke up at about 6:45 so I could take out the trash. Today the trash men came at 8:00. I wish they were more consistent with the time they come to get the trash because sometimes they arrive at 11:00, sometimes 14:00, sometimes 7:30. But I don’t want to be too critical because I’m thankful that they remove the garbage from my life.

I then went to sit and wait for an idea to come to mind when my mom asked me to edit a photo of her dog Posh. The edit turned out looking cheesy, so I offered her to take some pictures of Posh and Samoa in front of my photography backdrop.

This would lead to the one and only piece of drama in my day.

After eating breakfast, I got to setting up my photography rig and got the dog to the room where my stuff was. Posh mush be afraid of the white fabric because she refused to stand up. She laid down, she sat, she ran off of the backdrop. Samoa also wouldn’t stand (do they hate white?) but he was less stiff. After about 35 minutes of wrestling 2 french bulldogs, I ended up with these photos.

 

After that, I figured since I already was taking pictures, I might as well take some pictures of myself.

If you haven’t seen my most recent youtube video, you may not know that I’ve finally made a rig to take pictures of myself with my shutter button so as to get wider self shots.

I got a lot of good pictures which is pretty rare. Normally I’ll take about 400 shots and end up with about 4 good ones. Today I took 200 and ended up with 30 good pictures!

I’m not gonna post all 30 but here’s a good amount of them! (they’re big so just scroll hard if you don’t wanna look at me)

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shutter button + timer = cheesy pose central!
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so cheesy!
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I look like I expect something. (it’s attention)
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I just wanna show you my shoes honestly. They’re tough to put on so if I wear them, people need to see them. But you can see my general outfit as well.

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i try to pose with props so my pictures aren’t so boring but it normally looks unnatural. This one doesn’t though! (don’t tell me it looks unnatural please, thanks)
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I accidentally pressed the button while checking the focus
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Did you think I was done with my cheesy poses?

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See? Unnatural.
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I think this is the best showcase of my face from today.

 

After my photo frenzy, I studied Swahili for about an hour because I’ve been neglecting that language for a bit too long.

Since studying, I edited my photos and did a load of laundry.

I really need to write in my language log today. I haven’t written in it for like 10 days! Terrible!

I think tomorrow I’m gonna try to get some great pictures of Peanut, Poptart, and Maddie. They’re a lot better at posing than Samoa and Posh.

Thanks for reading!

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A Look at 13 Year Old Me

I found an old SD card from when I was in 8th grade recently.

I only got the courage to look at the files on it today and wow…

I was annoying.

I’m not going to pretend that I’m a completely non-annoying person nowadays because I honestly annoy myself sometimes but whew!

I feel bad for everyone that spent time around me at that age.

I guess since I love embarassing myself, I’ll show you some of the astounding photos I took in 2013 (photos and videos with others in them are excluded but trust me those photos are awful too).

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I thought taking blurry photos was the height of comedy (i still kinda do)
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take note of the deep side part
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does every girl have a colored mascara phase?
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I really wasn’t as ugly as I thought I was
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This was my instagram profile photo for over a year.
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I think N.O from BTS is playing on the laptop in the background… (I still like that song)
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and in this one Voodoo Doll from VIXX is on in the background (no regrets, still holds up)
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This was the first photo I ever uploaded to tumblr… Don’t try to find it on there, I deleted that blog

I think someday I’m gonna look back at the way I am now and feel the same gut wrenching horror that I feel when I look through this SD card today, but that’s not gonna stop me from being me for now.

It kinda makes me uncomfortable to see the similarities between 13 year old me and 18 year old me (i.e an undying love of eyeliner and a habit of taking a lot of pictures of myself).

It also makes me sad to be reminded of my mental state during this phase. I remember always feeling like I was reaching for something that I could never grasp. I still feel that way really often. At this age and throughout high school, I felt like I was constantly getting close to getting the approval that I so desperately craved, but it would never come in full. I was the understudy. I was in the background. I was around in case something bad happened to the people that mattered.

I don’t think these feelings of inadequacy will ever go away but at least my braces did.

So thanks for walking down this horrible, unpaved memory lane with me. I hope my braces didn’t gross you out.

I Fixed My Google Photos, Here’s Some Pictures

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the old lady
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I took this the day before I got pneumonia
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My bruise from getting blood drawn
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wink
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I took this the day Mel died and it makes me sad to look at 😦
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one of my favorite things is seeing the moon in the morning
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samoa taking a break from being mean
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this is my first time taking a picture of myself in a car  I think
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This is probably gonna get uploaded to my instagram too
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and the piece de resistance…

 

 

I’ve always wanted to take a picture of myself sneezing and I finally did it.

I’m Crushed

My sweet boy Marshmallow died this morning.

I don’t know what happened but somehow he got out of his hutch and I think the french bulldogs scared him to death.

I feel so awful because I feel like it’s my fault for not reinforcing the closure on his hutch. I feel like if I woke up when he got out I could’ve saved him.

I had so many plans for Mel.

I wanted him to be the ring bearer at my wedding . I wanted him to finally be able to free roam 24/7 whenever I get my own home. I wanted to get professional pictures taken with him. I wanted to start taking him for walks in the stroller I got for him.

Honestly I just wish I could’ve said good morning. His favorite part of the day was when I’d wake him up by saying good morning and then I’d give him his vitamin c supplement.

He has so many treats left.

I wish he could’ve eaten them all.

I’m just crushed.

I hope in heaven he’s eating all the apples he wants. They were his favorite.

I’ve been crying on and off since 8am and I still feel like I have more tears left.

I don’t know what to do but I’ll give you some pictures of my pretty boy.

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grinding down his chompers

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getting kisses

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baby picture!
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his first time meeting peanut

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i really believe he loved me

 

 

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marshmallows first strawberry
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he thought he was sneaky

thank you so much for reading.

Marshmallow loved attention so he’d be happy to know people are reading about him and admiring how handsome he was.

I love you marshmallow

i’m 18!

i’m officially 18 now.

i guess there’s some more stuff i can do now (i.e vote and drink in most countries) but i don’t feel any different. more people have wished me a happy birthday than i think ever have before, so thank you!

today my friend Angel took some photos of me for my birthday so here they are:

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before we decided the backdrop is cuter

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seriously, read it

 

virginia trip day 7

this is the day i left.

in the morning we went on a dolphin boat tour.

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we were surprised to learn that the boat ride was supposed to be a “thrilling” ride so we took motion sickness pills and then got on. it should’ve alerted us that it would be fast and “thrilling” when we saw the name “OC Rocket”.

i expected to maybe see 3 dolphins but i think we saw at least 8!

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there were even babies out ♡♡♡

after going on the boat i was drenched since i sat on the edge so i rinsed off and then we drove 3 hours from ocean city back to virginia.

there we had one last meal at CAVA and then took off for the airport.

i studied at the terminal and then we took the plane ride home. i did some japanese and mandarin study on the plane and watched John Mulaneys “Kid Gorgeous at Radio City”. i pissed off the girl sitting in front of me with my laughing.

we got home at about 11:30.

i wish i could show you how happy my pets were to see me but i don’t wanna film moments like that. the best part of going on vacation is coming back and seeing your pets.

that was too sappy. yawn.

stupid post coming soon.

virginia trip day 6

sorry i didn’t post for 2 days, i’ll be posting 3x today.

this day started with a trip to the beach where we sat for a while and i took pictures of the nice cloudy sky.

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that black fin is a bottlenose dolphin

we saw some dolphins off the shore and that inspired us to get some tickets for a dolphin watching cruise (see next post).

we next went to assateague island to see the wild horses.

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after assateague, we went to eat lunch at De Lazy Lizard. they ran out of veggie burgers so i had fried avocado tacos and guess what?

more french fries!

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a virgin pina colada

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after eating we spent the rest of the day at the house and i got an email saying i’ve won another AP scholar with distinction award. i’m happy about t but i feel a lot of pressure to achieve every time i get an academic achievement.