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im graduating from treatment tomorrow

i dont know how i feel. i think ill continue to eat in a healthy way but ill always have an eating disorder and thats what saddens me. tomorrows post will be even more in depth about how treatment was since ill probably be feeling nostalgic about the three and a half months i spent…

the life without ed experiment: results

so… for the past few days ive referred to my eating disorder as a separate person.   it was uneventful. iev realized that i dont really refer to my eating disorder often. i also have learned that it doesnt change how i feel about my ed– i still hate it. but i have realized after…

questioning my blackness

am i black enough? thats been a question ive had for my whole life. i identtify as multiracial when given the option but when, for example, i have to check boxes on standardized tests like the ACT (which i got a 35 on, no i’ll never stop bragging),i have always chosen black. am i wrong…

i ordered some new clothes

my mom got her tax return and you know what that means we spent a f*ckton of money on things we don’t necessarily need my mom let me order about $170 of clothing from fashion nova and i’m a little nervous about trying on the clothes. i got a few pairs of jeans even so…

is my eating disorder a different person?

if you’re really interested in eating disorders for whatever reason you may have, you’ve likely heard of life without ed. essentially the author describes her eating disorder experience through the lens of an abusive relationship with “ed”. i’ve been thinking about this book for that past 2 days or so. i don’t know how i…

adderall and ed recovery: a question

so i have ADD (could you tell?). because of my ADD i’m on a prescription for adderall. i noticed today after taking it for the first time in a few weeks that it really suppresses my appetite. i don’t know if i should be ok with that. i like my adderall because it’s one of…