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on break

I’m blogging at work right now so this post probably won’t be my best work but whatever. You know how I told you about that girl that used to work at my store who came in and made a scene? She came in again today… uuuuuuuuuuUUUUUUUUUUGH Did she not get the hint? But luckily she…

oh no

I’m going to college. Damn it. None of this stuff felt final until today. I’m so, so painfully terrified. For much of my life I’ve never really thought about my future in too straight forward of terms because honestly, I thought I’d kill myself before anything important is meant to happen. Now I’m at a…

discouraged: intro to the week of vapidity

i don’t feel comfortable writing personal posts right now because of the backlash i’ve received for my last post. i think with my current mental state (sad, slightly suicidal, terrified of the future) i shouldn’t post anything to encourage the people in my life to respond negatively. so i’m declaring this upcoming week the week…

not excited about tomorrow

tomorrow i have a lot to do but i’ve already been exhausted by the past 2 days.  yesterday i took my AP biology exam and it went worse than expected. the multiple choice was easy as always but when i did the free response section i counted the number of questions wrong and thought that…

feeling numb

after crying on and off all day yesterday i cant feel anything. i just want her back so bad. i wanna pet her and hug her and take just a few more pictures of her. i miss having her scratch at my door in the middle of the night and i miss her jumping onto…

London

my beautiful grey kitty london died today at about noon. im inconsolable so i need to vent or whatever this post is. as i write this im crying and waiting to get her cremated. im gonna tell you all about her: i got her when i was 5 and i dont have any memories where…

graduating from treatment today

this is gonna be a short post since ill be writing about actually graduating later today. im very excited. i kinda wanna cry because im not sure if im ready to return to the “real world.” today i plan on looking cute so im wearing my black turtleneck, black heeled jellies and my lavender wide…